WisteriaWolverine

Blue light crystal, indigo, violet
The midst of heaven and the midst of twilight
Through a gate of storm to enter night
A heartfelt vigil, candlelight
That shining light quite violet blue
They say its not its indigo
On indigo the heart bleeds red
The heart beats true its heartfelt dread
Crystal clear so indigo blue
A thumping heart its madness true
And deep rage feeds that violet red
Emotions flood the watershed
Oh indigo so silent, sad
Violet blue on riverbed
Green stalactites so coldly know
Skyward high that jade will go
The sky will start the lake will stop
The deep blue water mountain top
Indigo and bright violet, green
Water, sky, tautology
Blue light crystal purples there
Within the midst of sunrise share
The deepest greens unearthly quiet
Crystal blue and indigo violet

Full moon flickers shadows vain
Hazy, dancing, memory lane
Some things here never ended
Why must it ever be remembered
Not cruel or kind, there's only bliss
That it ever surfaced, hit or miss
Sublimely haunting, sweet and sad
Full of hopes both good and bad
Starshine moonglow footsteps heard
Within the sanity, absurd
Inside a mind so broken down
Outside the dream some souless drown
To hold a thought a silence true
Should be an easy thing to do
But footsteps too the heart can break
Within the innocence they take
Moonglow hides a heart so sad
Starlight salves the wounds so bad
Full moon flickers shadows vain
In earthly toil down memory lane

Blue stream mountain dust
See the truth, the wonderlust
Watch the rain it falls from sky
I wonder where, I wonder why
Deep dark track it leads to where
Through the brush and down some stairs
Touch the leaves all brown and green
Patterned bark around the trees
How long to be this forest fair
How long to be a person there
Keep a secret not in vain
Safe from every harm and pain
Let dreams soar in peacefulness
Get on with life in restful bliss
Why is it they are not like them
Certain danger they befriend
So smoke pours out the mountain top
In a place where time forgot
Where man once walked the forest green
And greed was absent never seen
They walk a track that leads to where
Through the brush and down the stairs
They know this place they know it well
They keep it safe they'll never tell

Nameless Faceless

Where is it, father, that you went
I will not cry I won't regret
If I saw you no matter what
Ignore the sin it's all forgot
I am you, but you're not me
Don't take a genius to see
That I'm not you but you are I
Believe in love ignore the lie
Why is it that you thought to do
The one thing I would live to rue
Why is it that you did that thing
and caused the sadness that it brings
Where was the conscience on that night
that helps us see the wrong from right
Where was the sensibility
that helps to guide morality
I wonder what it was deferred
that you could do that thing to her
I wonder what it was, you see
that made you lose humanity
I try to make you human too
ignore the thing you chose to do
I build you up, I tear you down
it's just so tough this shaky ground
I get an image in my head
the same one that she must forget
I have a thought inside my brain
It's one she fought to try and tame
So wild and angry deeply so
the things I hate yet need to know
And so I ask the empty void
I hope that you will fill with noise
I wonder who you are some days
and others I just wish away
the thoughts of you and who you are
I can never know and that's bizarre
That you are me and I am you
leaves me feeling rather blue
That I am you and you are me
is one of my life's tragedies

If I were you and you were me
What is it that you think I'd see
Would I see truth would I see lies
Such tragic things those alibis
Would I see heart and vanity
tied up with bows of sanity
Would I see all your wisdom too
or all those things that fractured you
What is it that I'd take away
from your future, yesterday
and can it last the journey through
those simple things and lead to you
I wonder what it is I'd see
would I see hate, depravity
And if I did what would I say
and if I did, well, would it pay
To speak the truth to speak my mind
to hang around so long this time
And would you voice the sentiment
that so portrays your bitterness
Could I handle you alone
you strip me back to skin and bone
and when you're done you kick me down
then I can't seem to hold my ground
I don't know what it is in you
that makes me write the things I do
I don't know where it is you went
that made you so malevolent
I wish you weren't but you are though
Someone I wish I didn't know
I know it's sad and such a loss
But you'd be better just forgot
Your bitterness, a deep dark well
enduring you, a living hell
Survivng you, I will attain
somewhere between the hurt and pain
If you were me and I were you
what is it that I'd want to do
Would I love you like you love me
I don't think you would want to see

Soprano singing heavenly notes
ethereal reaching to my soul
Baritone shakes my spirit fair
divine vibrato waiting there
I'm standing here I'll wait a while
'til they bring out the Matinee Idol
and in his role, I know he'll do
a flushed and hurried Romeo
Awesome standing in the wings
awaiting passion that they bring
makes my spirit there to soar
and once they're done I'm wanting more
Don't matter if it's bleak and sad
or if the story's weak and bad
the music always carries through
anything they try to do
There in the audience we sit
and get involved we can't resist
to watch it flop or be a hit
they never know, game's hit and miss
And then we cheer as he jumps round
we're going to laugh when he looks down
We get caught up, the space between
what they meant and what will be
The girl she's always fair and fine
and Romeo's got to take the time
to rescue her, whatever else
no matter injury to self
And more we laugh as he looks up
to speak with beauty, butter cup
and she goes on to break his heart,
his world slowly falls apart
We sit there so enthralled with it
this play, potential Broadway hit
And soon we find we're out of time
have to leave the dream, sublime
A tragic end was what was met
by Romeo and Juliet
Then the curtain closes in
the end of him and heroine
In future, others we'll enthrall
we knew him when he was small
We saw him as an unknown
he's one of us, he is not foreign
Soprano sings some heavenly notes
and it is time for us to go
Baritone shakes my spirit fair
as I leave the magic there

Eye to eye and face to face
simple thoughts no saving grace
Knees to grass and palm to palm
recite the rhyme and play to charm
I am you and you are me
Catch my fall, one two three
Can we do this stay alive
I hope we can, three, four and five
Face to face and eye to eye
find the truth within your lies
Palm to palm and cheek to cheek
was it you or was it me
Daddie's girl was number four
even though he slammed the door
Never wanted number three
should have been a girl, you see
So unplanned was number two
and what a dreadful thing to do
Play them off with number one
they won't win, all said and done
You are me and I am you
peas in pods were one and two
Cold malice was in their eyes
Three and four, there was no five
Eye to eye and face to face
We never found that saving grace
Recited rhymes and played to charm
Knees to grass and palm to palm

Black clouds, homestead
voices talking in his head
Blood rushes too and fro
house is bathed in fire glow
Chase the dream inside his mind
make him wish for other times
before his soul got old and black
before there was no coming back
Up the stairs, along the hall
humanity dies, takes a fall
In sanity he'd rather die
than ever hurt his sweetiepie
He gazes on her as she sleeps
her perfect little angel feet
hair shimmering, midnight hour
innocence he must devour
Monster looming in the glow
in places she don't want to go
and yet she will, she cannot help
she cannot speak, she cannot yell
Cold as steel inside his heart
dreams that tear his mind apart
Was she her or was she she
he cannot tell, he is not he
The deed is done she cries and sobs
he says he's sorry, says a lot
and tucks her back into her bed
those voices screaming in his head
Down the stairs along the hall
avoids the portraits on the wall
Accusing looks as he walks by
they know the truth, its in his eyes
Out the door onto the path
this kind of thing it has to pass
in black clouds at homestead
with voices screaming in his head
Chase the dream inside his mind
makes him wish for other times
He wishes he could just go back
before his soul got old and black
He gets the key unlocks the door
he will not hurt her any more
Into the bach, a gun to head
she's better off if he is dead

I once thought I saw a likeness of mind
In Montresor who lived way back in time
Yes I could go a Fortunato
There's been a pipe of Amontillado
I think I know what Montresor meant
When he ranted and raved and got on his bent
Fortunato was a garrulous fool
Yet he didn't know it and thought he was cool
He taunted and spoke so very verbose
Montresor headed to thoughts that were gross
And somewhere they met, I guess in the middle
And started this creepy outrageous old riddle
Montresor, sanity, Fortunato
and ever elusive Amontillado
in caves and in darkness the two of them went
so Montresor could get along with his vent
Of Masons and sorrows was Fortunato
he had not seen any Amontialldo
But Montresor counted on his buddy's vice
the need to be smarter, and so he was nice
Invited him down into old catacombs
knowing in hours it would be his tomb
Fortunato was stupid and so up himself
did not see it coming and so couldn't help
falling into the trap set by old Montresor
and while they were walking he kept drinking more
When they got where they went to he was very drunk
did not notice those chains as they clinked and clunked
Before he knew anything he was chained down
under water and nitre so deep in the ground
Montresor busied himself with a trow
and ignored Fortunato who pitifully howled
for help and for mercy from old Montresor
but he felt no compassion, he just smiled more
"Spare me my life in the name of Lord."
"Shut up, Fortunato. I'm building a wall."
"How did I offend you? Oh please spare my life."
"You did not offend me I just want your wife."
No, he didn't say that, slight chuckle, ya know?
But you got to feel pity for Fortunato
He upset Montresor and so it did go
that Poe wrote the horror, Amontillado

What is she doing in my loft
she should go home but she forgot
Watching me as I type away
she's here at night she's here at day
Tic tic tic, tapping of the keys
fairy-dance of thoughts you see
White paper, splashing words of ink
plot to thicken as he thinks
Hear the bell ting at the end
another line he has to pen
His mind is faster than his hands
thoughts collide, creative man
Sip of wine to loosen up
moves his arm and spills the cup
scarlet hits the paper white
glistening drops, spessartite
Beneath the sheen, candle glow
nightmare thing, such a blow
now white paper has turned red
headache pounding in his head
Words of black have turned to brown
rubs his sweating, furrowed brow
now he has to start again
typewriter is not his friend
Ideas go loose in wasted hours
his love of writing starts to sour
when trying to regain ground he lost
he looks to window sees a moth
He narrows in to take a look
pretends he's staring at a book
Why is she here that child lost
why is she up there in my loft
Opens window frees the bug
grabs his wine, another chug
glances at reflections there
within the window, her dark hair
Why is she staring down at me
what is it that she wants to see
Why will she not go out and play
should I get up send her away
He stands to feet turns off the light
makes his way out into night
and listens out for her to leave
to go back to her family
And once she's gone he then returns
both ends of candle he will burn
to fix mistakes to make it right
and get the play to opening night
One winter she just wasn't there
through the glass vacant stares
no more into his loft to stray
empty misty window panes
Why did she leave he doesn't know
or did they up and make her go
and will he see her face again
he thinks as words he starts to pen
Its all geared up for opening night
the play that he took months to write
and once its done he'll start some more
he thinks during the curtain call
Then summer comes and autumn too
and winter comes with all her blues
then decades past and he's forgot
the little girl once in the loft

Mirror Mirror on the wall
Will I stand or will I fall
Mirror Mirror speak to me
childhood is no fun you see
Geogie Porgie he just lied
Mary's lamb, it up and died
Three blind mice, they headed west
Mad Hatter robbed the Robin's nest
Jack and Jill confuse me so
Tom Thumb I don't really know
Rapunzel has such long blonde hair
They cut mine off, that wasn't fair
Humpty he fell off the wall
He wasn't pushed, was just a fall
When I fell they all laughed so
I have no help, nowhere to go
Jack Horner he stuck in his thumb
I tried it too, was really dumb
When he did that, they thought him cute
When I did that, I got the boot
What is it that I'm supposed to do
I am a girl not Little Boy Blue
They smile when he just blows his horn
All I get is angry scorn
Send Pied Piper, come and play
I really want to go away
Upon a horse of dapple gray
Poisoned apple, make my day
Mirror mirror tell me true
Am I anything to you
When I grow up will I be strong
If I grow up will I belong

Where did she go, that angel fair
Her deep green eyes and auburn hair
Her mother lied, her father too
Was such a shameful thing to do
She watched her face and knew she'd die
And never did she ask them why
Her rag to head and face so drawn
The end to life to death forlorn
She did not know and did not ask
Why her life too was fading fast
She did not know, few children care
When days seem long and life seems fair
Yet all around things seemed amiss
And many truths spelled bitterness
Music made the stars to touch
Yet also turned those dreams to dust
Life was simple, trim and true
She never did what she ought to do
And in the mind one picture stayed
The woman that one saw that day
Did she live or did she die
And was there any reason why
Did they laugh or did they cry
Did they speak truth or did they lie
Death can take so many forms
Can be in heart and not at all
And when they speak some cannot tell
A life lived true a life lived well
Where did she go, that angel fair
And did the neighbours really care
Or was it curiosity
That made them really want to see
So both were lost to life so true
Familiar between the two
That one met death, the other stayed
Didn't matter much, all memories fade
When everything's nothing, all is lost
and no one stops to count the cost
She looked at she, she looked at her
She saw the child that they deferred
She saw the child she never said
What she thought of all of it
She saw the woman time forgot
She saw the lady, Camelot
And on it went their separate ways
Time and Time and time again
And on and on in sunshine rain
From time to time she sees her face
Where DID she go that angel fair
They don't know or rightly care
I don't think she was ever there
I wish to know yet I don't dare

In solace stance, solitary knows
To skip the vice of man's repose
Across the hall into the den
Major mountain molten friend
Simple fete that soul advance
In wicked games of circumstance
In chains of truth and honesty
Release the hounds oh Smithers, please
Trick the light from night to day
Beg the flames to go away
Into the day of dustball dreams
Between what is and what it seems
A heart it beats quite madly so
That one who sees yet doesn't know
Missed the thought of his regret
One who saw will not forget
Across the hall into the den
Major mountain molten friend
And what of silence, sweet refrain
From the thunder in the rain
Within the years sweet ignorance
A nameless face, malevolence
In heart pain echos loud and long
Years forgot, unknown, gone

Drunken men find fault with silence
Swag around in mire and violence
Two seconds blind cut off his ear
and where is he? He is not here
Pictures play inside the fall
pretty tunes not here at all
Thumping truth just breaks his mind
and go back there? He's out of time
To speak the things he meant to say
look forward to a brighter day
Dreams drowned inside a wiskey cup
went so far down and out of luck
And who was he and who were you
two lives entwined in ridicule
both playing out your game of rhyme
the test of truth, the test of time
You stayed too long and wanted more
and so you both created four
A heart you see, the truth does break
cos it was just your last mistake

Twin Bridges Road

Walk a road once known well.
Hear the truths of tales it tells,
yet just to me my deepest secret,
within my heart, that's where I keep it.
Trees are high, yet shadows small.
Day drifts by, fulfilling, forlorn.
True love was never quite so stange
freedom's wings soar yet reality tames,
their sense of flight for simple things
time passes on and tears do sting.
There's seasons and they always change
all through the years, despite the pain.
Want to hold on and never let go,
as I walk along that old shingle road.
Twin bridges. Twin ties. Alibis,
under midnight moon, in childhood times.
Green grass hides the truths we find
and bittersweet the endless tide
of time sweeps dreams and splendor away
to a future time or a bygone day.
Wherever to? I do not know,
can't find it, even though I go
and look for it and look for you,
but the seasons change, they always do.
Time rushes in and sweeps away
dreams of thoughts of yesterday,
never to be found again,
for me and her, my long lost friend.

Empty Spaces Of My Father's Heart

River runs high, river runs low
within my mind, inside my soul
up in the air and on the ground
water's deep, cannot be found
love that's true, love that's free
truth that's you, truth that's me
river breaks banks of heart
can't stop it there, it's gone too far
river's dread, my deepest fear
the water's black and I am there
in front of you, inside your mind
up way ahead and left behind
the current springs across the rocks
taking me and you're forgot
by everything the river takes
across the rocks, dreams it breaks
smashing them to smithereens
wrecks the truth, or so it seems
wish you'd leave me, wish you'd go
don't want to need, yet need to know
whose blood it is inside my veins
the author of my tears and shame
the river of myself at best
is it more of you or of you less
where did it come the good in me
some wilderness society?
river runs high, river runs low
within my mind and in my soul
the river runs where it will go
and in the end, who really knows?

break a mirror seven years
darkened place that's filled with fear
where heroes stand and fight in wars
and so do we with all our flaws
zepplins crash out of the air
I try to but I just don't care
where they land or where they go
don't ask me I just don't know
in zepplin dreams I felt so much
reality was out of touch
with us and all we hoped to find
we're out of luck and out of time
find fortune in your muddy trench
your lies have such a ghastly stench
dreams crawl in ashes, wonder why
no honesty , it's just all lies
and what is truth I hear them say
just kiss it off, another day
keep the enemy at bay
cos it doesn't matter anyway
in shades of dreams a kiss of life
and just as well and right on time
and all your thoughts disgust me so
sometimes I wish I didn't know
the depths of soul to which you sink
and utter crap you sometimes think
so set in stone your own ideas
and nothing is as it appears
you lift me up and let me down
and sometimes you just ain't around
so what am I to make of that
I just don't know and it's a fact
you say you care and then you go
you say you will and then say no
and crawl in trench of truthly mire
burn my worth upon the pyre
then zepplins fall out of the sky
you look to me and then ask why
I wonder why you ask at all
why zepplins really have to fall
dreams can be just like balloons
one days yours and then they're used
by other ones as weapons sharp
to end your life to cut your heart
no salad days for us it seems
or golden years, reflecting dreams
of all we did and all we said
I cannot cry, I'm not upset
been past that place before you see
tried being what you want from me
and when I did, it's not enough
and when I cried you said, "that's tough."
so break your mirror seven years
I am numb I just don't care
what you do or what you say
it doesn't matter anyway

Church with steeple touching clouds
Past wrapped up in darkest shroud
Dreams of venture fall to ground
In mild and murky shady town

Thoughts were not malevolent
Love and truth they all did vent
Hate then turned their words to stench
It left, thus giving up for Lent

Watching those you'd never know
deepest depths they'd choose to go
toss the faith both too and fro
until the truth none ever show

What took place was all of lies
Their pain and fear their alibi
Beseeching prayers up to the sky
I wonder if He wondered why

I know she wondered much of them
Fiends and foes they were her friends
No one knew why in the end
Down the track to past descend

One day all they said was bye
Regret not featured in their lies
She never stopped to wonder why
she was their greatest alibi

She hid their truth so well and sure
She stood there faithful and demure
She never found that wondrous cure
For the love they did defer

In mild and murky shady town
Beneath a steeple touching clouds
Her feet are firmly on the ground
Her Saviour's love, the treasure found

Past is merely whispered truth
Over, done and of no use
Sometimes I wish I could scream
Reality those fleeting dreams

Endless road of hearts laid bare
nothing over no one cares
Foolish thing that prose of rhyme
goes nowhere, no place no time

Speak to me those heartfelt lies
I promise I won't kiss goodbye
You'll stand so true beside me there
and promise you'll pretend to care

And I pretend along with you
there's nothing else that I can do
Though it's bad, meek and mild
It's life, breath, both weak and wild

When its all that's left to you
What is it that you're sposed to do
Ignore the one thing that remains
Let go of it then who's to blame

Endless roads of hearts laid bare
I know its true and I don't care
Cos if I do right on this day
They'd disappear. They'd go away

Droplets on green leaves
Sparkle as silver jewels
Mist to make pine aroma travel
wafting promises never kept
Crystal coloured sap slowly creeps
down some trail rarely travelled
Attainment of elusive becomes possible
A place somewhere far away she can never go

Dark water gushes over stones
always ever present day and night
Clouded dismal day breathes dreams
to the soul of one so alone
The river rushes wildly raging anger
Yet keeps it veiled well
Hidden beneath the depths of what looks beautiful
Could take her places she should never see

Salty water gushing black sand
the safest place for one to stand
hooves thunder in the distance
as she looks out over sea
far away as a human eye will scan
dreams lie aloft the ocean spray
and the waves come wash them away
to some blue bottle dotted shore she can never be

Sky blue day assault with white
Take it on into the night
the darkness is the friend that's there
Ebony shrouds, her soul despairs
And with those foes until the morn
On and on and on and on
Achive the rank of that repose
Never moving to that which she can never know

Misery musty green cut grass
on ground hooves tread softly
do not interrupt the tears that fall
that land in green ignored by all
And by the time be swept away
In empty words no feelings lay
Collective sigh relief they gave
On the day they finally sent her away

Attainment of elusive becomes possible
A place somewhere far away she can never go
Hidden beneath the depths of what looks beautiful
Could take her places she should never see
and the waves come wash them away
to some blue bottle dotted shore she can never be
Achive the rank of that repose
Never moving to that which she can never know

If I could do it all again
I'd never want to be your friend
I wouldn't want to see your face
Not in that time nor in this place
If I could have it back to do
And I could say some words to you
I'd make them mine and they'd be yours
You'd hear them well and not ignore
I'd tell you all the things I thought
And everything I wished was yours
Though I know it could never be
I really want your heart to see
Why if I did it all again
I'd never want to be your friend

If I could have one wish as such
Would not be something I could touch
Would not be fame, money or gold
nor wishes to live very old
I'd never wish those things that pass
Nor things I know can never last
Would not be things that pass away
nor things that only last a day
Could never be what puffs one up
Or things that turn all gold to dust
I hope that you can understand
The words that I cannot recant
that if I had my time again
I'd never want to be your friend

If I could have one dream come true
The dream would not seem strange to you
It doesn't contain things of wealth
or things we gain from using stealth
I know these values you hold well
In all you do that truth it tells
Within the dream my pain it lies
And brings those tears into my eyes
Within this poem ever reek
the words I know I'll never speak
Yet know I have to make a start
to voice the words within my heart
why if I had my time again
I'd never want to be your friend

I'd never want to be your friend
because there'd be no start or end
In what I'd be no love deferred
or other people be referred
I'd have swung in daddy's arms
and I'd have learned all daddy's charms
I'd have learned to love me too
I'd have learned so much from you
You'd have taught me right from wrong
and how to really live so strong
To stand for what I knew was right
To not say die to always fight
Truthful you'd have been to me
the truth that always sets one free

I hope that it is evident
that I gave a compliment
I hope you see into my heart
That you won't tear it all apart
Yet I will never let you see
and I know that's contradictory
but I am simply honouring
you, I couldn't honour "he"
I don't know why it's you He chose
I don't think I will ever know
This poem's never meant to hurt
I hope you understand the words
why if I had my time again
I'd never want to be your friend

I have been in love before
I know my rank and know the score
I've travelled down that lonesome path
Where others tear the heart apart
Measured truth and worth so well
Heard the lies they sometimes tell
And some that I have told myself
Open, honest, lacking stealth
Within love where does stealth stand
Should it be part of the plan
Don't think it should yet know it does
I know stealth has no place in love
Yet for some they practise true
Those horrid things we sometimes do
And conscience has no part to play
I wish and wish and wish away

Romantic love can be so tough
Tramples hearts caught in the rough
It chews them up and spits them out
it really hurts and fills with doubt
those still searching for the one
to help the searching be all done
Can come up roses thorns and vines
and it can really slow the time
or speed it up so very fast
whatever seems it never lasts
What was I before I met you
and now you're gone what will I do
What did I do before we met
how did I take each sacred step
that brought me where I find me now
how can I breathe still, tell me how

Faithful, freely wistful child
Stay with me and dream a while
Think of things you want to see
Silhouettes of what can never be

Dream your dreams of times since past
The things you knew could never last
Hold them in your little hands
Watch them fall like grains of sand

From your heart the hope does flow
In your mind the four winds blow
Imagination times cool salve
Soothe the pain, reality’s harsh

Skip the days to who knows where
See yourself as cute and fair
The kind of child one would want
Whom never could become forgot

Within the dream time is still
All shall bend unto your will
Nothing else will turn out wrong
Silence filled with hope’s great song

In desperation cry your tears
Even though they’ll never hear
They are deaf and blind to you
They always were, the only truth

Faithless haunted tragic child
Go away from me a while
Face the things you really see
Silhouettes of what can never be

No picture on the mantle piece, no face upon the wall
No memory of her first steps, there’s nothing there at all
No one knows from where she came, some said it was a fall
From somewhere up in Heaven’s clouds, for sure she was not born

Not in the way of he or she through joy and purity
Or through the pangs of hopefulness, or love’s sweet mystery
When mother pushed her from the womb, hate breathed in marquisette
Spessartine upon the floor, the blame placed on her head

And daddy shuddered violently because she was not his
He’d punish her for “his” great sin, love he would never give
When she looked in her blue eyes the tempest storm would grow
until waves of anger crashed and bitterness would flow

It gushed out like a broken dam and smashed the child down
Merciless the mother’s hate child broken on the ground
And daddy did it late at night within his drunken rage
And even though “he” was not there he made “his’ daughter pay

And all around the mire swelled got bigger by the day
Until they both had had enough and girl was gone away
They told them all that she had died, was buried in the dawn
No one knew the truth of it and no one ever mourned

Few would ever speak her name and seldom missed her so
Hardly anyone knew the girl so no one love would show
And so it went that she grew up with nowhere to belong
No roots to keep her grounded, no love to make her strong

And yet she’s a survivor with her love of Jesus Christ
He holds her heart so tenderly He never would think twice
He keeps her safe from danger and He saved her from the fall
Don’t matter to her any more no photos on the wall

Caught in the dark tide swift undertow
Seeing the things that they wouldn't show
And where truth will drag you nobody knows
Inside the deep dangerous furious flow

Twisting your body unheavnely form
Breaking your will, the heart of the storm
Feeling the anguish feeling forlorn
Beseeching "come quickly calm of the dawn"

Gritty and scratchy the sand on your skin
taking you deeper, you fear you can't win
It's dark and it's angry, much to your chagrin
Giving into the hatred a terrible sin

Deeper and deeper the tide pulls along
You keep on fighting, you know it's all wrong
the fear and the anger you twist among
And you know it's not over until it is gone

Then it stops as quick as it started
Dawn has arrived, sky is not darkened
Freedom's a seagull that flies around harken
your anger and fear has so long departed

Caught in the love of one greater than you
Surrendering weakly is all you can do
Lying flat down with your face in the sand
Freedom was always a part of His plan

The tide is calm no storm in the bay
He raised His hand and he swept it away
You look to the sky with nothing to say
'cept God saved my life and it starts here today".

No matter all the risks he takes
He never seems to catch a break
Hanging on by fingertips
One false move and he will slip

No one seems to notice him
Always waiting in the wings
As he screams out silently
"Why can’t anyone see me?"

No matter all the good he does
Seems it always turns to dust
Linger the peripheral
Ignoring him the golden rule

No one sees that he is there
No one knows and no one cares
They just treat him like a ghost
He’d disappear, no one would know

Why does he bother doing this
He might as well just not exist
It would make no difference
They vomit their ambivalence

He wishes he could fly away, leave this place, he’d go today
Maybe he could go somewhere people see that he is here
"And where is that?" he asks himself. "Is it within someone else
Or maybe it is that its not, perhaps escape is best forgot."

Instead he stares at a green wall, naked trees within the fall
Tapping on his window pane, tempest flare it tries to tame
Why does he feel this empty loss and why is it his justly lot
What is it that he did to you that he’s fading out of view

Maybe he was never there, never seen, bad affair
No one ever thought of him, yet somehow that is not a sin
Just a sin when done to you, it’s horrible but oh so true
They refuse to see him there, they just don’t know and they don’t care

It is always quite okay, when they want him to go away
Justly right if it’s the truth, perfectly fine if its not you
People can be cruel sometimes, they cannot see, won’t take the time
To embrace another’s soul, they don’t care that he is cold

They want him to go away, come back when THEY want to play
They spend their time ignoring him and to them he don’t mean a thing
Until the day they need some help, invite him back employing stealth
They need his help and trick with charm and welcome him with open arms

But once they’ve taken everything, they think that he’s malingering
Somewhere that he shouldn’t be, they make him go, why can’t they see
That he’s a person just like them and that he just might need a friend
Why is it just too hard to see that within him there lives a “me”

Breathe the air of happiness beligerantly ignorant
Never thinking of that other soul vanished in the dark of old
How can one love him well today, tomorrow simply walk away
How can one live here very long but not be noticed ‘til they’re gone

Pack the things and said goodbye
No reason given none asked why
Where she went they wouldn't say
One cloudy winter just sent her away
She'd trod the road that led to bridge
Imagined jumping off that ledge
Being swept away to another time
Some other place, not left behind
The wind blew little on that day
The rain fell gently in its way
The sky grew darker ever gray
Why she went they didn't say
Where did she go they left unsaid
The truth left hidden in their head
Who would love her now she's gone
They didn't care were not that strong
The shadows flickered on the wall
and they lined up to watch her fall
"It wasn't pretty," they did say
the day the girl was walked away
It wasn't even her town too
she never was a me to you
They didn't care to seal the seam
just watched it leaking shattered dreams
And where she went they did not care
as long as she was never there
So they could get on with their life
and know that they were always right.

Piczo